god is faithful

I pray you all are having an amazing day. God is so faithful in so many ways, but if I am honest I questioned it this week. Why? Because my meticulously crafted plan was altered drastically. A big deal that was pretty much signed sealed and ALMOST delivered fell through. My heart felt like a giant hot air balloon deflating as I received the news. What now? Really? How could this be right? I was a kaleidoscope of emotions. I rode the wave of the feelings for the rest of the evening.

I felt myself going down a path that just didn’t seem right, but it felt good. Have you ever been there? Where you just want to wallow, scream, cry, and eat a pint of ice cream (which I did do). I felt like a 2 year old having an emotional tantrum internally not because God is not good, but because I didn’t get my way.

After picking my face out of my feelings and laying it all out before God I remembered asking him to “completely shut any door that’s not for me, even if I try to break the door down myself – shut it.” Don’t you hate when you have to eat your own words? It happens to me a lot. That door was not the best one and if I am honest I have no clue what the best one is, yet. I am clinging to what I do know:

GOD IS FAITHFUL

GOD IS FAITHFUL

GOD IS FAITHFUL

GOD IS FAITHFUL

GOD IS FAITHFUL

GOD IS FAITHFUL

As long as I remember that, I’ll be good and you will be too!

Thanks for hearing my heart and pray for me as I pray for you.

PS: The above blog post was written on November 26, 2019 – guess what? Almost a year later I see sooooooo clearly how and why my meticulously crafted plan was far less than what God had in store for me. God is Faithful! – Briana Ariel Green (October 2020)