Confession Time

I love being able to have an online community where I can come to share some highlights of my life. However, I would be doing you all a disservice if the highlight reel was all you saw. Life has ebbs and flows. Over the past month, the pendulum has swung from one end to the other sometimes within minutes. I looked up and a month has flown by.

So what’s my confession?

I’ve been procrastinating in doing some key things I should be doing this season. One of which is finishing my children’s book.

I know I am procrastinating when I decide to go on a random cleaning spree or declutter my closet instead of taking on a task.

I’m procrastinating because I am intimidated.

What if it’s not perfect? What if no one buys it? What if it’s not impactful?

I know my why! So even if it doesn’t hit the best sellers list or I have a design epiphany and no longer like the spread, the book is a success. I have two little girls who are waiting to see their mommy’s book come to life. That should be enough motivation, right?

I know what I should do, but (at times) I still choose not to do it. I wholeheartedly understand why Paul writes in Romans 7:15, “I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate.”

When you see someone being successful in one area, we cannot assume they are successful in ALL areas. No one is perfect, but we are all trying to do our best. This is your encouragement to pick up that project, degree, or conversation that you’ve been procrastinating.

I guess, I will have to eat my own words and make more progress on my long-awaited children’s book.

-Briana Ariel